The bleeding was due to a little bit of placenta detaching. It's something to watch, according to Dr J, and I was treated to extra shots of PIO. The placenta that detached was from the weaker baby so Dr J did say that this might be a sign of things to come. Or not. I go back on Thursday. And Saturday if there is any more bleeding.
The depression is definitely lifting and my shrink thinks it was withdrawal from pain meds mixed with all the stress, that sent me into a tailspin. I have to see her more frequently until she is certain I am ok. My psychopharmacologist is on Wednesday and she has had twins so I hoping to get some more sage advice. (The difference between the two practitioner's is one is a medical doctor that does psychology and the other is psychologist and therefore can't prescribe).
I have to say, it is nice to be back at work. I am sick of the sight of my apartment. I'm tired and cranky but that is normal for me so no-ones suspects anything! I do find it weird not to yell for a coffee or run out to *$ every hour! Oh a cappuccino. With extra foam. ohhhhhhh.
I'm not panicky about baby b. Since we have never really got this far before I am grateful for every day I have them. I know there are risks and I know my luck, so I am kinda resigned to something happening but I am trying to find peace with everything that is and might happen. Its the only way to enjoy this pregnancy. And not get locked up in a mental ward!