Saturday, January 9, 2010

emerging ...

the last 24 hours totally sucked. I have had three disks and a ripped annular tear all at the same time and even that did not compare to the sciatic pain.

However, it seems to be receding. I have been on T3, which I am stepping down now, and I had two Demerol shots and now I can walk around the apartment a little, i had a shower and finally got changed out my pj's.
All I have now are shooting pains in my leg and something called rolling cramps in my calf. That means that my muscles take turn to cramp and occasionally have one big cramp together.
You know when they say your butt is one big muscle? Well, trust me, you don't ever want to feel it cramping!!!

As the pain recedes my mind wonders to the two polka dots. I am so excited and hope all the medication really is as safe as the RE told me. I ask them what they want to eat. The latest thing is chocolate cookies which is amazing since I like them too!!

Thank you to everyone for your comments, thoughts and support. I know it is a tremendously contentious notion of reduction and everyone was so very sensitive. I am calmer about the whole thing now. I'll speak with the professionals and make a decision one way or the other, knowing all the time that my heart and head may have to be divided on this one for the rest of my life.


  1. I'm glad your pain is easing up a bit - hopefully you'll be back to yourself in another day or two. much love xoxo

  2. so sorry about your pain, and so amazed at your polka dots!
    I want YOU to feel ok-- with everything, but, back, babies...
    I'm here for you no matter what.
    so sorry you've been suffering. pain sucks rocks.

    thinking of you

  3. I am glad your pain is receding and sending you warmest thoughts. I am here for you.

  4. I've been thinking about you the past couple of days, hoping you're okay. So glad the pain is receding. It sounds just awful. And, hmmmm, how funny that your little ones like chocolate chip cookies - my little one does too! Take care of yourself and try to rest.