I know mood swings are part of the deal but I seem to be swinging from depressed to despondent. Last night. by the time Dh came home I was a total and utter mess. I sobbed and sobbed on the poor guy.
What is it that I am so depressed about? I don't know. It could be all hormonal, I realise that. But I haven't really experienced this kind of feeling before.
I made an appointment to see pyschopharmacologist next week to discuss my dosage and mental health which is what I am holding on to at the moment.
Everything seems to compound the feelings. It looks like massive finance changes are afoot at work which might have major impact on my job. I found that out yesterday and today , I am already thinking I am fired , pregnant and old. I know I am very employable, and to be honest, a regular might be a good thing for me whilst we start our family. It could all be nothing, it could be something but I am going to tell my boss I am preggers before the meeting - just in case.
Did anyone have deep depression in the first trimester that lifted in the second??
Oh, and here I am, pissing and moaning again.