She called me later in the day. She wants to do a h/sonogram. She wants to check out my uterus lining.
She wants to do this AFTER we have spent all this money??? I have been at the clinic for 2 years. She told me that there may be some reason that my lining is preventing implantation. It may be too thick ( I start at 7 and go to 20)
If I wasn't so depressed I would be angry.
Last night I went to international adoption class #1. We qualify for Russia and Ethiopia. That's it. I resented sitting there, I resented listening to all the reasons why we can't adopt form 90% of the countries out there and I was tired. Yes, I went a little too early in the grieving process!
DH and I didn't discuss any of this last night. I didn't have the energy and he is depressed (which is manifested by snarling and disappearing) so I thought we could try this morning in our couples session.
I am feeling awfully sorry for myself. Hopefully my first workout in what feels like 2 months will help.