AF is here. I am glad. I am relieved that last cycle is now done with. I don't get to do the sonogram thingy this week and probably won't with Cornell. I don't want to go back to that clinic for a while. It is really painful but I just took some pain killers suggested by the hospital and I totally stoned! I have the munchies but I think that is just a natural state.
They drama is lifting a little bit everyday. Back at work, back in the chaos, is nice. I was fine yesterday night after working out like a demon and having a long hot soak in my bath. This morning I am anxious again but it could be to do with the amount of coffee I drank!! Deep breaths, sunny skies and a realistic look at my life helps. I am lucky in most parts of my life. Hopefully I will catch a break in this one area soon.
I have some fun trips coming up and have booked my trainer for 3 hours a week (which means I will do a minimum of 5 hours a week). We have some fun projects at work and some crazy clients. I will not let this last cycle ruin my autumn. It is a wonderful time of year and I look forward to it.
My biggest challenge is knock on emotion. So when I feel depressed I feel anxious, I get paranoid my lead team will quit or I will get fired or someone will steal a client etc. Mostly my anxiety is focused on being left high and dry at work. So I need to think about how to keep level headed and focused.
Guys, I know I have said it before but here it comes again. Thank you. Your consistent support has been my life line and my hope.