My little kittie had her one week check up. "Mixed bag" as the vet said (which meant 'rotten') Her counts are still elevated, she has a raging temperature and she lost weight. So, she is back in the critical care unit for a night, getting a biopsy done, a long term feeding tube and she will be home either tomorrow or Sunday. The fee's are enormous. ENORMOUS. But the prognosis is long term recovery. Everyone was mooning over her, telling me how cute and lovely she is. Well, yeah. Now fix her.
Came home, had a long cry and now need to clean out her 'hospital room' aka the bathroom (it's a little stinky and I can wash it down). We have had to hire a frikkin' nurse to give her meds and food during the day coz we both work and don't have any vacation or sick time left. This cat is now the most expensive thing in my life. Except DE.
I realized that the Donor and I are on the same 'natural' cycle. That's weird isn't it. Or is it! I wonder if we get offered the donor closest in cycle? nah. that's just silly. I am feeling a bit sad about my friend getting to have her own genetic baby whereas I have to give that option up. I know when I am holding that little lump I will not care in the least. I know the love I will feel (and in some ways feel already) will be pure and whole. So I should just shut the hell up. And my kid will not be plagued by my crappy genes. Weight watchers anyone.
Can you tell I have raging PMS?? It's weigh in day tomorrow and then I am having some seriously naughty food.