In the cab yesterday DH looked over and grinned "we get a packet next week" .. er what? It took me ages to work out he was talking about the Donor Egg match packet that has all our details in it. It's the first sense of excitement I have had from him (which is usual, it takes time). Now he is treating me like I am pregnant and/or 4 years old (practicing to be dad).
I started to worry, fret and all round anxiously nit pick at the fact this is not a done deal. I read blogs of women for whom DE didn't work or hasn't worked. I keep thinking we should be filling out adoption papers just in case. This is how we started IVF . We were more than hopeful. We were confident. DH really thinks this is going to work. He keeps quoting stats and saying things like 'and with the weight loss'...
Do I jump off cliff and hope I can fly? Or do I shuffle along, jumping in the air and have very brief moments of joy but a safe journey???
Today is the anniversary of my first m/c and the start of our journey through IVF. I am in a much better place now than a year ago, not least because of you, the supporters and coaches I have come to rely on.
Happy 4th to you all.