So here's an odd thing. I have no idea what to do now. I don't know anything. I feel like I have a PhD in infertility but upon graduation realised it didn't prepare me for pregnancy! I have no idea how pregnant I am. I look at other women's posts that cycled around this time and they have the weeks and days up there. How do I work it out!! I am 9dp5dt that is all I know.
I keep thinking - did I dream it? Did I think all this but in reality I am still in limbo, waiting for a beta, or a scan, or an injection or a pill, or an appointment with yet another doctor. I am very aware of my history of multiple m/c so I consider myself limbo pregnant at the moment. I know I am anxious because I have the nails of a teenage boy. I am not a nail biter and my hands could do a Mou.ntain De.w commercial.
However, we decided to celebrate tonight with a milkshake (whoopee we are HOG WILD) and then take it one day at a time. Celebrate with a milkshake! I swear, I used to be interesting. And, I have found a prenatal health group near work which looks terrific for when the time is right. The program is yoga, nutrition, prenatal classes and pre/post birthing support (which given we have no family that can help us out might make sense).
DH was very sweet when he saw the print out of our polka dot. He got such a soft look on his face. He stared at it for ages and then at me with tears in his eyes. He is a bit dreamy now and going to be late for work if he doesn't hustle!
Wow, its Christmas Eve and we have a polka dot.