Dr Goo.gle be damned. Thank you guys! Talked me off yet another ledge. I have to trust the docs and I will. I will, I will, I will!!
Wow, 3rd trimester. I have 8 to 10 weeks left of being pregnant. After all it took to get this way it seems to be flying by. I saw myself in a mirror today and do I have a belly!! I look hilarious. I tend not to wear maternity clothes, now that Empire waists are everywhere. I do have one shirt that makes me look like I am 10 months pregnant with elephants which I wear to any meeting with my boss so he takes pity on me :-) Baby A is still high up and Baby B is low down so I have 2 pregnancy bellies.
I am going to start to pack my hospital bag this weekend (I love to pack!) I bought a blow up double nursing pillow, lavender oil and rosemary oil, comfy socks, a silly book, my travel pack of bathroom stuff, huge sanitary pads that were recommended at one of the many classes , two pillow cases, eye shades and earplugs, and there is so much more to go!
I am holding off packing the stuff the kids will need till last. I want DH and I to do it together. DH is still in panic mode but I am buzzing with excitement. I am close to meeting my kids. I am close to holding them and kissing them, feeling their soft skin and munching on their tiny toes. I am not letting any worries dominate this last bit of anticipation. I can't believe that they will be in my arms in a matter of weeks. I started worrying that it would all get taken away from me, now that we are close to the finish line but you are all so wise, I can't give in to that bullsh#t. I get to see them again on Saturday. Little boy head is such a cutie and girl is all wiggly and jives when she is poked. My little monkey's. Is it possible to love them already? Well, I guess it is :-)