Saturday, May 14, 2011

Day 1. Fear and Loathing in NYC

Holy FAT ARSE Batman.

I knew things were bad but not to this extend. I'm so pissed off at myself. Such a horribly long road ahead, ah well,  I did it to myself and have to take responsibility to get back in shape.

When I heard how much weight I'd put on I thought 'What's the point???' Almost giving  up 5 mins into the whole new program - yeah, great attitude. Luckily I have the best leader in the world who happens to be writing a book about post pregnancy weight loss. She encouraged me to think of this weigh in as Day 1 since I am not the same person that was in the program before and to think of specific goals for this week that I can achieve. She instructed that comparison to any other times of weight loss is  futile and destructive. Smart words.

So, here I am. At the bottom of a very tall and steep mountain without my usual gumption forging me ahead and to be honest, I am a little scared. I'm terrified. But maybe a little fear isn't such a bad thing.


  1. I just want to send you encouragement having been there myself. I was at my lowest maintainable adult weight at the end of 1999 (when I met my husband). I began a slow gain as we nested the next few years, stopping only to lose a few before my wedding in 2003. Then it was 4 naturally conceived miscarriages, two surgeries and jumping on the IVF train full bore. After my 5 months of complete bed rest and 37 pound pregnancy gain, once I was up, I lost most of the pregnancy weight, only to be left with almost 65 lbs of 'other' weight. I've never had to lose that much weight in my life and didn't know how/where to start. Enter WW in June 2010. Even though it has taken me near 1 year to lose 40 lbs, and I still have 25 to go, I can do it and YOU can, too.

    One pound/one week at a time. Start losing, then set your sights on your 5%...small and achievable NOT look at the whole thing as insurmountable.

    Cheering you on (oh, and take your measurements (neck, bust, narrow waist, across the belly button, hips, thigh, bicep) and track. There was one month where I only lost 1 lb but I lost 3 1/2 inches).

  2. You can do it, EB! After all, think of how much strength and resourcefulness it took on your part to conceive your beautiful children...if you can go through infertility, you can get through anything! Keeping a food journal has been a HUGE help to me in trying to stick to my TCM diet - I highly recommend it. We are all here supporting you!

  3. You can do it, lady!! Very impressed at your positive attitude!

  4. I KNOW you can do it. You've done it before. Yeah, this is post-pg, and so it's different. My body is all weird and different from pre-pg. But I have witnessed how enthused you become about working out...and it will happen again. It just always sucks at the starting line. But at least you started!