Thank You. Your words are more helpful than I can ever write down in words.
I started eating yesterday. I had toast, a bagel, a scone, a very big juicy burger with cheese and bacon, a milkshake, an apple and cheese, pasta and a couple of chicken wings and a fruit smoothie. Oh yes. I have a skill it would seem. I am single minded when it comes to getting things done. I am laser minded, it would seem, when it comes to my little monkeys.
In the afternoon I slept, or was it a food coma, for a couple of hours. Last night I slept on and off until 930 (I usually get up at 6 or so to work before the day starts) and I have just scoffed down four pieces of high fiber wholewheat toast with goats butter and organic honey.
I have two weeks till my next growth visit with Dr J and by hook or crook, these kids will have grown!!
After all your thoughts and care I am much calmer. I did have a melt down yesterday but by the evening, after reading all the wise words from you and my friend C (twin mom) I felt calmer and more focused. I rearranged my work schedule and so I am basically sliding into maternity leave which to be honest, I welcome with open arms. I have a job that is like herding very mean cats and I just don't have the emotional strength to do it right now.
So, I am going to make the bed, take a shower and climb back onto the bed to finish the book I have been trying to read for about a year. Oh, and I shall take a bowl of cherries, watermelon, two apples and little cheeses and some shortbread biscuits - for a snack :-)