Sunday, April 24, 2011

As per our agreement...

Many times today I sat holding one or the other and tears were streaming down my face. However, there were times when we were all on the bed or the play mat cracking each other up and that is what my life is for. It's to hear my kids laugh. When I cry Pip pats my face. He may be a pain in the butt sometimes but I think he is going to be a very caring fellow.

Mimi has come down with something. It could just be teething or the change in water but she is filling diapers left and right. She is a little cuddly but she's still grinning from ear to ear. I swear that kid was born to bring light into the world. How did I get so lucky?

I am slightly panicky still, with low level anxiety and higher level depression. I realised that we are all out of the routine and I need routine to feel safe, in control. So, today I decided to really start on establishing the routine again for their health and mine. I was reading about the EASY approach. Eat, Activity, Sleep, You time. I like the sound of that! So I adopted it into our current supposed routine.

Our routine.
The kids got up at 1am and 4am last night. NOT per our sleep agreement.
I got the kids out of bed at 5.00am.  At 9am and 3pm we all went out again to get in the sun as per our time adjustment training. Apparently if you take the kids out in the am sun and the pm sun they will adjust better. Here's frikkin hoping. It was supposed to be crappy here in NYC but it was 79 and sunny. Blissful weather. Park full of noisy kids and mine snoozed the hours away. I read the NYTimes to them. They like the arts section.

Both kids took an hourish morning nap as per our agreement. All fine there.
However, Pip reneged on his afternoon nap but I didn't cave even with all the noise. I went in every so often to rub a back and retrieve the binky. He lodged many complaints with the management but I think we ironed them out on the play mat. I was somewhat alarmed that he was crying real tears. When we first established the routine I don't remember real tears.

I also cancelled a guest speaker gig tomorrow because if my kids are ill, I'm staying with them. I feel a bit sick myself but that could be the four espresso's and two pots of coffee I drank to stay awake today.

Tomorrow I have a nanny and a full day to sleep to look forward to. I shall go to the gym and I may even get a massage. Depression - watch out - I'm coming to kick your arse. 


  1. Re-establishing a routine is probably the smartest thing you could do. I think your mood will be much better once everyone is back on a schedule. Babies are very sensitive to routine and I hope you'll all be re-settled very soon. And sleeping!

  2. Keep up the good progress and enjoy your day tomorrow especially!