Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Not what I wanted

We were on the brink of the worst of the sleep routine. The major crying was supposed to be last night. I hired my old night nanny since I am totally wiped (long boring work story) and I don't know if I can take the serious screaming by two babies. I would be a total wreck.

I went through what I had been doing, the plan, the outline for the night.

She didn't follow it. She fed Pip at 12.45am and didn't feed Mimi at all. They were both supposed to get a focus feed at 10pm then nothing till 6am. She got them up and bathed waaaaaaay too early. WTF!!!!
Of course the kids this morning were wigged out. They do not like change.

She is coming again tonight. I am writing out the plan and going through it on paper so she gets the message.

For some reason I am furious. I guess it bites my arse when I work so hard to get these kids into a healthy sleep routine and she just ignores me. I employed her to sit through the hardest of the crying (because I am a whimp!)


  1. Ewww. I hope that tonight the Night Nanny gets the picture. I would be furious as well! You know, she is getting PAID and all, you think she could do what her client wanted. You are not starving or hurting your children, you are doing what you think will be best for them in the long run. They are old enough for an 8 hour stretch without food. Good luck!

  2. the mom of 5 under 7 years, you will sleep again. Enjoy the last night feedings. They will be gone so fast and you will miss them more than sleeping I promise!

  3. Hi EB -- thinking of you and hoping the night nanny is following the script tonight and all is going well. With love,

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