Monday, October 4, 2010

Back in the saddle...

Can you believe I am writing this from work. I took off two months and here I am again. I feel like its too soon and then again, soon enough. I have guilt at leaving my kids but relieved to be back in the land where I know what to do most of the time. I miss them and it feels so good to be away for a bit. I think I am may be going insane! I blame it on the lack of cookies. Nearly every morning fro the past 7 weeks I have got the kids down for a nap, poured myself another cup of (decaf) coffee and munched through at least 3 or 4 chocolate cookies while watching the WE.st Wing reruns. HEAVEN.

However

I am still 20 pounds away from my pre-pregnancy weight as I found at when returned to weight watchers this weekend. 20 pounds. Ah well, it was so totally worth it!! I have upped the amount of breast feeding/pumping, included a longer walk, asked for permission to go back to the gym, cut down the amount of 'fatty' foods (not cut out, not yet) and I am aiming for 1 pound loss this week. Yes, you read it right... 1 pound. I do not want to put any pressure on myself. My first goal is 1 pound, then 5, 10 and finally 20. Once I am back to pre-pregnancy weight I will celebrate by signing up for the tri-boro bike ride and start training. I have a total of 90 pounds to lose till my 'insurance' weight. As you see, it's going to be a long haul but I will not be the fat mum when these guys start school.

So, back at work, back at WW and back to eating healthy.

4 comments:

  1. Yay for you! I think you are right on with the weight loss, good luck this week. I remember being so lonely that first year of child raising, I'm glad you have a job and a wonderful at home care situation. Try not to stress out cuz this is an amazing time of your life! Take care -

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  2. I'm a weight watcher (joined for the 1st time in June) and had 56 lbs total to lose). I'm down 20 lbs and never could have imagined it would be THIS slow going.

    They are changing the WW program by the end of this year. From what I gather on-line, they are going to the ProPoints plan that they rolled out in Europe at the beginning of the year. We'll see!

    Good luck!

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  3. Wow, it seems like you just had those sweet babies. I can't believe you're already back to work. But, yes (said in hushed whipsers), sometimes getting away IS good. On my rare solo outings, I hop in my car, fling back the sunroof (otherwise left closed so as not to blind the baby), crank up the stereo and drive with [a mild degree of] reckless abandon. In fact, today I did this very thing - on my way to BRU to purchase 6 large cans of formula.

    Kudos to your weight loss dedication - right back to WW. It's easy to find other things to do, so I'm impressed!

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  4. wow - you sound like me. It feels somewhat good to get away, but there is terrible guilt at leaving them with the nanny. I also changed nannies on Monday, so I'm starting all over again. I have to control myself while working from home because at every little cry, I want to run and tell her what they want or need. I know she needs to figure them out, but it's so hard. Damned if you do, damned if you don't (work or stay home, that is.)

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