The whole 'no job' thing is sinking in. It's terrifying. Everyone is stunned - all my friends and colleagues. No-one saw this coming, not really. At least it isn't a performance thing. This is the result of a hostile take-over and I am on the wrong team.
At first I had massive emotional swings. 'Freedom!' to despair to 'lets go!' to feck off while I curl up in a ball and whimper. I am in a permanent state of shock now. I think about the fact that for the first time in my adult life I have no income and a spike of panic spread through me. My shrink prescribed some sleeping pills and working out. I walked for an hour this morning and it did f+ck all.
And one of the worst things about all this is I have three weeks of work left. I have to actually still be at work. It's torture. And, my dear friend and colleague is on vacation till the middle of the month. I have to tell her when she gets back. Totally dreading it.
I have got to get it together.
At least the recruiter calls are all set up.
Thanks to those that posted - it was great to read the support.
At first I had massive emotional swings. 'Freedom!' to despair to 'lets go!' to feck off while I curl up in a ball and whimper. I am in a permanent state of shock now. I think about the fact that for the first time in my adult life I have no income and a spike of panic spread through me. My shrink prescribed some sleeping pills and working out. I walked for an hour this morning and it did f+ck all.
And one of the worst things about all this is I have three weeks of work left. I have to actually still be at work. It's torture. And, my dear friend and colleague is on vacation till the middle of the month. I have to tell her when she gets back. Totally dreading it.
I have got to get it together.
At least the recruiter calls are all set up.
Thanks to those that posted - it was great to read the support.
